Four days away from work and the daily grind, mixing with different people has given me some time to be able to reflect on events and begin to think properly about what I need to do. The time has not exactly been packed with lectures, firstly that isn’t the nature of this course, and secondly this was our dissertation workshop, we needed and time to think and discuss how we will tackle this large piece of work. Most people I know who have studied for an MSc have taken about a year or so just to do the dissertation and we have to identify our research paradigm, conduct the study and write it up by June 1st!

I have decided that I need a new job of some kind, I just can’t decide whether to wait until the course finishes. Part of me thinks I should just go for any jobs that come up which I feel I would really want to do and part of me thinks no wait. One of the things that makes me want to hesitate is the planning I am doing to go it alone and whether I wouldn’t be best placed to get going with that and then just gradually cut my hours down in the job I am about to be given.  A new job would give me back my motivation and would probably make me more like my normal positive enthusiastic self, but it will also be tiring to try and juggle everything at once. There is no way of knowing if I would be jumping from one negative environment to another until you got there and at least I know the people in my current PCT. The  material for my dissertation, which I am almost certain will be about Action Learning and its relationship to supporting and developing leaders will come from my current organisation or more precisely the people within it, but then again that data can be obtained while I work my notice. I wonder why a question always leads to more questions than it does answers!