It is about 11 months since I started this job in the alien world of children, maternity and whats more commissioning rather than providing. It hasn’t been easy. I am an adult nurse by trade, I know much more about leg ulcers and ladults with long term conditions than antenatal and neonatal blood spot screening or children’s urgent care. I have constantly questioned what I am doing and whether I shouldn’t be doing it elsewhere. I have wondered if I shouldn’t just have hung around in education waiting for my time to ‘come again’.
It has not been until the last couple of weeks that I have actually begun to feel that I belong. That I understand this stuff, that I can speak without thinking quite so hard. Even though all along I knew deep inside that it was the right thing, that this is great experience and I have great people to work with I have questioned my right to be here, and whether I should want to be here. Finally I can say; yes I do. So long as my resubmitted job description gets me off of protected pay. Other wise no matter how much I love my job it won’t be worth what the PCT want to pay me. Take note Mrs CEO!
